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Friday, December 31, 2010

Happy New Year's and all that... Really Just Two Things!

1. Siesta Scripture Memory Team... It's here. It's finally here and I'm up at 12:36 am writing this post and waiting to get my Scripture on the LPM Blog and low and behold- no post. Yep, that's right. I anticipated myself right into mild disappointment. Not really... I'm totally good. I just posted it on the current post. :D I'm a bit of a rebel in case you didn't know.So my Scripture is... Isaiah 58:6 (MSG)

This is the kind of fast day I'm after: to break the chains of injustice, get rid of exploitation in the workplace, free the oppressed, cancel debts.

2. Thinking about school days - my friend Amy's birthday is January 1 and I used to call her no matter where we were and wish her Happy Birthday just after the strike of midnight. Well... With a little tweaking-I FB sang Happy Birthday - totally. :)

And that brings me to the real point-in high school when I wrote a little note to my friends at the end we would put Write Back! Write Back. Yeah, and in case you didn't get it- WRITE BACK!

Leave me a comment. I'd love to know a little about what you like, even what you don't like. A little friendly debate never hurt anybody. I just want to know whose out there. I know you've been by so WRITE BACK!(Am I being too demanding, may be all that water I toasted the New Year in with... I'm waterlogged.) See you tomorrow, I hope. Oh yeah, and WRITE BACK!

Just Thinking

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19 Be alert, be present. I'm about to do something brand-new. It's bursting out! Don't you see it? There it is! I'm making a road through the desert, rivers in the badlands.~ Isaiah 43:19 (MSG)

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About You! Yes, you - right there on the other side of that screen - thinking about well, being the people curious person that I am - WHAT ARE YOU THINKING? :)


Share it with us - what are you thinking about as December 2010 draws to a nostalgic close and God opens the door to a brand new year - a fresh start - like the crisp fresh page of a brand new journal, what do you sense God is writing on your heart this day?
5 And He Who is seated on the throne said, See! I make all things new. Also He said, Record this, for these sayings are faithful (accurate, incorruptible, and trustworthy) and true (genuine). ~ Revelation 21:5 (AMP)

WHAT NEW THING DO YOU WANT GOD TO DO IN YOUR LIFE THIS YEAR?


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Thursday, December 30, 2010

Blog Through The Bible: January 1-7

On Your Mark... Get Set... Go! :)

Blog Through The Bible Is About to Begin! The last week we will have 8 days of reading for the one blog post.

Reading Plan: Week One



Boundary #6: Let this be a “one another” opportunity. Come back here  each week. Read about what God is doing and saying to everyone who has agreed to Blog through the Bible. Visit their blogs and pray for them. If you have a prayer request for the coming week, please leave it in a comment to this post. Be sure to visit the blogs if they are linked up of those who are journeying through the Word with us this year!

If you would like for me to email you a PDF of the Full Year Calendar to keep in your Bible send me an email. Be sure to check in with a comment and let me know what you are praying for God to do in the year ahead!

Next Year Maybe WE. WILL. READ. THROUGH. CHRONOLOGICALLY!

Wednesday, December 29, 2010

Blog Through The Bible


Life is a journey from this temporary, earthly home to an eternal one. I've longed much to have the Word of God written on my heart as I read through the entire text of the Bible in one year. It is one of those things on my spiritual "To Do" List that I still have left undone.

PROPOSAL: Commit to reading daily Three Chapters A Day-365 Days of Scriptures- individually, and writing a weekly post about what God is doing through your reading. Some of you may want to take some extra time to dig in and word study a bit, but let's try to limit our posts to what we read and what God is saying to us through Holy Spirit and His Word.

Anyone who completes 50 out of 52 week of the Bible Reading journey will be entered to win a Brand New Spirit-Filled-Life Bible (NKJV) by Thomas Nelson Publishers. How will I know-You'll check in here with a comment of course.

Boundaries in any good relationship are essential - so let's do some boundary setting - what do you say?

  • Boundary #1: Bathe yourself in prayer. 1 John 1:9 tells us that we are to confess our transgressions to God and He is faithful and just to not only complete that forgiving work He began on the cross, but to also cleanse and purify us from all unrighteousness. If you don't know if you have anything in your heart that needs confession then ask the Holy Spirit to show you. After you've confessed, appropriate the promised forgiveness and cleansing to yourself and ask Him to speak a word to you as you read.



  • Boundary #2: When you pick up the Scriptures lay aside what you already KNOW, and observe how the words come to life as you read them from your heart. God's Word is living and active, sharper than any double-edged sword. It will cut us to our heart if we let it.A living Word will always bring something new to the table. Read these words like you've never read them before in Your life. Listen for the rhema words of God to ring in your heart. Words just for you. Ask God to begin writing these words on your heart.



  • Boundary #3: Make an appointment each day to meet with God and each week to meet with us. If you get behind, show up anyway. In Mary Kay we used to say that if you have a bad week you need the meeting and if you have a good week the meeting needs you. The truth we're all busy with a "To Do" List a mile long. God has shown me lately that we have room in our lives for what we make time for - will you make time for this?



  • Boundary #4: Let's work hard to honor one another. A culture of honor applies mercy rather than judgment, and offers encouragement in love rather than correction and discipline. It balances the scales - so to speak. I believe this is what Jesus meant in Matthew 3:8 when He said, "I desire mercy rather than sacrifice." And, again in the Old Testament when Micah prophesied, "Do justice and love mercy." Seek to walk justly in my own life while loving mercy for the lives of others. Because honor values the person - let's not offer counsel unless it is asked for, and let's not correct openly - but do discuss what the posts and comments are doing in your own heart. Let's do that, shall we?



  • Boundary #5: If you have a blog - write about this there! This will help you to link your post back here. Be sure to leave a comment and use to direct us to your post each week.


Will you join me?

If your answer is Yes! Then let the redeemed of the Lord say so... IN. A. COMMENT. :)

TO. JOIN. IN: Post your first name (last names are permitted, but are optional), where you are from and today... Post your favorite verse of Scripture.

THEN: Check back here on Friday, December 31st for the first week's reading assignments - You will find the weekly reading assignments posted Friday at 12:00 am each week.

FINALLY: Chime in on Monday, January 3rd for our introductory post. We'll be talking about what we are seeking the Lord for in 2011 and what we are praying He will do in our lives as we Blog through the Bible together!

Tuesday, December 28, 2010

Church Shouldn't Hurt

I was reading this evening about the rock band, Lifehouse, who sings a number of songs that help my heart connect to God, but don't label themselves "Christian." (You can check out the article here.)

The lead singer and the bass player of this band met at church, played in the youth band together, but fail to identify themselves as Christian because one of their families suffered as the result of moral failure and rather than restore them gently this young man heard many say to his fallen father, "You are going to hell."

The article prompted me think of a young man Scott and I ran into last week. He had been in the youth group we served, and as a result friends with our children in our first few years of church life. He asked if we were still going out there and we told him we had made a change in our church home in 2007. He responded, "Yeah, I pretty much left that whole scene behind when they kicked me out of the worship band." Ouch.

This young man's background left him a target ripe for the enemy. His mother went to prison for a number of charges, and he was called to testify against her. This young man just needed a family, a safe place to be himself and encouraged in his faith. Whether or not the asking him to step down from the worship band was appropriate is not for me to determine. Whether or not it was done in love with gentleness and truth at it's heart - I don't know. But, the words he said cut right through me. How many times have I judged a situation as necessitating action that lacked love and only conveyed judgment?

How did Jesus do it?

Jesus loved. He loved the adulteress woman. He loved the lepers and the blind men. He loved the children and the demon possessed. He loved. I think of His gentle response to both the woman at the well and the adulteress woman cast at His feet.

Romans 2:4 (AMP)
4 Or are you [so blind as to] trifle with and presume upon and despise and underestimate the wealth of His kindness and forbearance and long-suffering patience? Are you unmindful or actually ignorant [of the fact] that God's kindness is intended to lead you to repent (to change your mind and inner man to accept God's will)?


It was indeed His kind and gentle - His distinct nature - that turned these women's hearts from their sin. His merciful demeanor and His gentle rebuke.

John 8:1-12 (NLT)
1 Jesus returned to the Mount of Olives, 2 but early the next morning he was back again at the Temple. A crowd soon gathered, and he sat down and taught them. 3 As he was speaking, the teachers of religious law and the Pharisees brought a woman who had been caught in the act of adultery. They put her in front of the crowd.


4 “Teacher,” they said to Jesus, “this woman was caught in the act of adultery. 5 The law of Moses says to stone her. What do you say?”


6 They were trying to trap him into saying something they could use against him, but Jesus stooped down and wrote in the dust with his finger.


7 They kept demanding an answer, so he stood up again and said, “All right, but let the one who has never sinned throw the first stone!” 8 Then he stooped down again and wrote in the dust.


9 When the accusers heard this, they slipped away one by one, beginning with the oldest, until only Jesus was left in the middle of the crowd with the woman. 10 Then Jesus stood up again and said to the woman, “Where are your accusers? Didn’t even one of them condemn you?”


11 “No, Lord,” she said.


And Jesus said, “Neither do I. Go and sin no more.”


12 Jesus spoke to the people once more and said, “I am the light of the world. If you follow me, you won’t have to walk in darkness, because you will have the light that leads to life.”


Jesus did not accuse anyone of wrongdoing. Not even the Pharisees. He left them with their hearts to judge them. Their hearts, prompted-no doubt-by the Holy Spirit, brought conviction to them and one by one an angry mob of elders dropped their stones and went home. The woman, flinching at the feet of Jesus, waiting for the first raucous blow to knock the wind from her-even the life-as the punishment rendered as it had been written in the Law - Stone. Her. To. Death.

Leviticus 20:10 (NLT)
10 “If a man commits adultery with his neighbor’s wife, both the man and the woman who have committed adultery must be put to death."


Do you think the Pharisees forgot that the woman and the man she was caught in adultery with were both guilty? It wasn't really the act of adultery that concerned these pious men - it was a justification for the wickedness in their own hearts that they sought. They were seeking evidence to use against Jesus to prove he was not the Messiah. The woman caught in adultery became a convenient excuse to prove how right they felt they were. They wanted power at any cost.

Why is it so easy to throw stones at others when we have so much in our own lives that have earned us death?

John 13:35 (NLT)
35 Your love for one another will prove to the world that you are my disciples.”


They will know us by our love. THEY. WILL. KNOW. US. BY. OUR. LOVE. Have we, as a church, missed this key ingredient of discipleship?

Churches are meant to be hospitals: people-focused environments that accomplish the will of the Father through their relationship with Jesus Christ. His Body-His Hands and Feet. His Heart. His Mouth. His Eyes. His Ears. Bringing Forth His Kingdom Here On Earth.

Casting Crowns sings, "If we are the body, why aren't our hands healing, why aren't our arms reaching? If we are the body, why aren't our feet moving, why is our love not showing them there is a way? Jesus is the way."

Have we become so behavior focused that we missed the call of Christ on our life found in three distinct places in Scripture that I would like to highlight:

Isaiah 61:1-4 (MSG)
1 The Spirit of God, the Master, is on me because God anointed me. He sent me to preach good news to the poor, heal the heartbroken, Announce freedom to all captives, pardon all prisoners. 2 God sent me to announce the year of his grace— a celebration of God's destruction of our enemies— and to comfort all who mourn, 3 To care for the needs of all who mourn in Zion, give them bouquets of roses instead of ashes, Messages of joy instead of news of doom, a praising heart instead of a languid spirit. Rename them "Oaks of Righteousness" planted by God to display his glory.


4 They'll rebuild the old ruins, raise a new city out of the wreckage. They'll start over on the ruined cities, take the rubble left behind and make it new.


Luke 4:14-21 (NLT)
14 Then Jesus returned to Galilee, filled with the Holy Spirit’s power. Reports about him spread quickly through the whole region. 15 He taught regularly in their synagogues and was praised by everyone.


16 When he came to the village of Nazareth, his boyhood home, he went as usual to the synagogue on the Sabbath and stood up to read the Scriptures.


17 The scroll of Isaiah the prophet was handed to him. He unrolled the scroll and found the place where this was written:


18 “The Spirit of the Lord is upon me, for he has anointed me to bring Good News to the poor. He has sent me to proclaim that captives will be released, that the blind will see, that the oppressed will be set free,
19 and that the time of the Lord’s favor has come.”


20 He rolled up the scroll, handed it back to the attendant, and sat down. All eyes in the synagogue looked at him intently. 21 Then he began to speak to them. “The Scripture you’ve just heard has been fulfilled this very day!”


Matthew 28:18-20 (NLT)
18 Jesus came and told his disciples, “I have been given all authority in heaven and on earth.  19 Therefore, go and make disciples of all the nations, baptizing them in the name of the Father and the Son and the Holy Spirit.  20 Teach these new disciples to obey all the commands I have given you. And be sure of this: I am with you always, even to the end of the age.”


Bind up broken hearts, heal the sick, recover sight for the blind, make the deaf hear, the lame to leap again. Grief ends while life and worship ends in the presence and power of the Holy Spirit - Old Ruins are made new and useful again when the Spirit of the Lord brings us the power of Christ's resurrection in our hearts.

Jeremiah 6:14 (NKJV)
14 They have also healed the hurt of My people slightly, Saying, 'Peace, peace!' When there is no peace.


God's heart is grieved when we overlook the wounds of His people and offer them no hope for healing, restoration, reconciliation and mercy. I believe this is true even more so when the person's misery is brought on by their own actions.  Read the words of the prophet, Jeremiah, who lamented the condition of Israel. He is speaking here of the priests in the temple who had become so caught up in the laws and the rites of temple order that they failed to see the people languishing and bleeding out in turmoil right before their very eyes.

God does not offer us mollifying platitudes when our hearts are broken. He offers us restoration, hope and healing. EVERYDAY.

Are we looking beyond the reality of people's lives before us to who they are - who God created them to be - and helping them to reach their full, created and unique existence in this life?

Scripture tells us there is NONE righteous, no not one! That's an absolute statement - an absolute word - NONE. (See Romans 3:10) We have all fallen short of God's glory, born in a fallen existence of ORIGINAL SIN. Inherited death. A flawed identity born into a broken existence ruled by the father of lies. The enemy starts very early reinforcing the lies that we are meant to live for less, doomed, problem-oriented, weak and failed.  He doesn't want us to know what God knows from before the beginning. We were created for Him-relationship with Him that reveals His glory.

When we discover our God-created, before the foundation of the world Identity in Christ we discover something that empowers us to live, to be the Hands, Feet, Voice, Heart and Grace of Christ to a lost and dying world. Jesus did not die because we have a behavior problem ruled by a code of conduct called the Law - the Law does not save, it only points men to the insufficiency of their ability to "DO" anything about their fallen existence. (Romans 3:10; Romans 7)

When will we stop focusing on what people are doing, and begin focusing on who God created them to be? When will we call forth the destiny and life in people rather than point them back to their ultimate death and sin? When will the vicious cycle of the Pharisee stop?

Will it stop with me?

When Jesus spoke to the Samaritan woman at Jacob's well He simply pointed out the truth to her and then encouraged her to seek something more. Like a mother holding the sides of her child steadying them to walk - He offered her boundaries within which to live rather than condemnation for the mistakes and the willful sin she had entertained. He even knew she was deceiving Him by leaving out vital information but He still only made her aware of His knowledge of her situation and did not condemn her.

John 4:5-30 (AMP)
5 And in doing so, He arrived at a Samaritan town called Sychar, near the tract of land that Jacob gave to his son Joseph. 6 And Jacob's well was there. So Jesus, tired as He was from His journey, sat down [to rest] by the well. It was then about the sixth hour (about noon).


7 Presently, when a woman of Samaria came along to draw water, Jesus said to her, Give Me a drink— 8 For His disciples had gone off into the town to buy food—


9 The Samaritan woman said to Him, How is it that You, being a Jew, ask me, a Samaritan [and a] woman, for a drink?—For the Jews have nothing to do with the Samaritans—


0 Jesus answered her, If you had only known and had recognized God's gift and Who this is that is saying to you, Give Me a drink, you would have asked Him [instead] and He would have given you living water.


11 She said to Him, Sir, You have nothing to draw with [no drawing bucket] and the well is deep; how then can You provide living water? [Where do You get Your living water?]12 Are You greater than and superior to our ancestor Jacob, who gave us this well and who used to drink from it himself, and his sons and his cattle also?


13 Jesus answered her, All who drink of this water will be thirsty again. 14 But whoever takes a drink of the water that I will give him shall never, no never, be thirsty any more. But the water that I will give him shall become a spring of water welling up (flowing, bubbling) [continually] within him unto (into, for) eternal life.


15 The woman said to Him, Sir, give me this water, so that I may never get thirsty nor have to come [continually all the way] here to draw.


16 At this, Jesus said to her, Go, call your husband and come back here.


17 The woman answered, I have no husband.


Jesus said to her, You have spoken truly in saying, I have no husband. 18 For you have had five husbands, and the man you are now living with is not your husband. In this you have spoken truly.


19 The woman said to Him, Sir, I see and understand that You are a prophet. 20 Our forefathers worshiped on this mountain, but you [Jews] say that Jerusalem is the place where it is necessary and proper to worship.


21 Jesus said to her, Woman, believe Me, a time is coming when you will worship the Father neither [merely] in this mountain nor [merely] in Jerusalem. 22 You [Samaritans] do not know what you are worshiping [you worship what you do not comprehend]. We do know what we are worshiping [we worship what we have knowledge of and understand], for [after all] salvation comes from [among] the Jews.
23 A time will come, however, indeed it is already here, when the true (genuine) worshipers will worship the Father in spirit and in truth (reality); for the Father is seeking just such people as these as His worshipers. 24 God is a Spirit (a spiritual Being) and those who worship Him must worship Him in spirit and in truth (reality).


25 The woman said to Him, I know that Messiah is coming, He Who is called the Christ (the Anointed One); and when He arrives, He will tell us everything we need to know and make it clear to us.


26 Jesus said to her, I Who now speak with you am He.


27 Just then His disciples came and they wondered (were surprised, astonished) to find Him talking with a woman [a married woman]. However, not one of them asked Him, What are You inquiring about? or What do You want? or, Why do You speak with her?


28 Then the woman left her water jar and went away to the town. And she began telling the people, 29 Come, see a Man Who has told me everything that I ever did! Can this be [is not this] the Christ? [Must not this be the Messiah, the Anointed One?]


30 So the people left the town and set out to go to Him.


Maybe in Samaria the rules are different, but if I read this correctly that woman was an adulterer, too. One who had earned a death sentence, but Jesus offered her living water instead. The town where she lived, everyone would have known her as a harlot who had married and left at least five men. But, something about her story grabbed their heart - they sought Jesus because of something they saw in her.

Matthew 3:8 (AMP)
8 Bring forth fruit that is consistent with repentance [let your lives prove your change of heart];


Romans 2:4 (AMP)
4 Or are you [so blind as to] trifle with and presume upon and despise and underestimate the wealth of His kindness and forbearance and long-suffering patience? Are you unmindful or actually ignorant [of the fact] that God's kindness is intended to lead you to repent (to change your mind and inner man to accept God's will)? (Emphasis Mine)


If we are not careful, we will begin to believe it is not the Holy Spirit but our clever or even sharp-tongued rebuke that will lead someone to repentance.  But, not so - It is God's Loving-Kindness at work in us that bears fruit in our lives reflecting an inward change of heart and ultimately an outward change in our actions, attitudes and speech.

Our role is to do three things: Encourage One Another, Testify to the Work of God and His Glory in our lives, and Spur One Another On In Love And Good Deeds.

Hebrews 10:24-25 (NKJV)
24 And let us consider one another in order to stir up love and good works, 25 not forsaking the assembling of ourselves together, as is the manner of some, but exhorting one another, and so much the more as you see the Day approaching.


1 Thessalonians 1:9 (AMP)
9 For they themselves volunteer testimony concerning us, telling what an entrance we had among you, and how you turned to God from [your] idols to serve a God Who is alive and true and genuine,


1 John 5:9-11 (AMP)
9 If we accept [as we do] the testimony of men [if we are willing to take human authority], the testimony of God is greater (of stronger authority), for this is the testimony of God, even the witness which He has borne regarding His Son. 10 He who believes in the Son of God [who adheres to, trusts in, and relies on Him] has the testimony [possesses this divine attestation] within himself. He who does not believe God [in this way] has made Him out to be and represented Him as a liar, because he has not believed (put his faith in, adhered to, and relied on) the evidence (the testimony) that God has borne regarding His Son. 11 And this is that testimony (that evidence): God gave us eternal life, and this life is in His Son.


Revelation 12:11 (AMP)
11 And they have overcome (conquered) him by means of the blood of the Lamb and by the utterance of their testimony, for they did not love and cling to life even when faced with death [holding their lives cheap till they had to die for their witnessing].


And finally, we are to build unity among our brothers and sisters in Christ. Is the Church - no matter what denominational affiliation it subscribes to-an agent of unity and reconciliation in the community? Are we doing what the nation of Israel did just before it went into the Assyrian and Babylonian periods of captivity? Perhaps we are so busy policing ourselves from the inside, fighting amongst ourselves over points of doctrine and quibbling over jots and tiddles to the point that we have not noticed that the enemy has torn down our walls and is carrying our people off into captivity. Perhaps we need to take a look around.

Ephesians 2:14-16 (AMP)
14 For He is [Himself] our peace (our bond of unity and harmony). He has made us both [Jew and Gentile] one [body], and has broken down (destroyed, abolished) the hostile dividing wall between us, 15 By abolishing in His [own crucified] flesh the enmity [caused by] the Law with its decrees and ordinances [which He annulled]; that He from the two might create in Himself one new man [one new quality of humanity out of the two], so making peace. 16 And [He designed] to reconcile to God both [Jew and Gentile, united] in a single body by means of His cross, thereby killing the mutual enmity and bringing the feud to an end.


2 Corinthians 5:18-20 (AMP)
18 But all things are from God, Who through Jesus Christ reconciled us to Himself [received us into favor, brought us into harmony with Himself] and gave to us the ministry of reconciliation [that by word and deed we might aim to bring others into harmony with Him]. 19 It was God [personally present] in Christ, reconciling and restoring the world to favor with Himself, not counting up and holding against [men] their trespasses [but cancelling them], and committing to us the message of reconciliation (of the restoration to favor). 20 So we are Christ's ambassadors, God making His appeal as it were through us. We [as Christ's personal representatives] beg you for His sake to lay hold of the divine favor [now offered you] and be reconciled to God.


With all of that - why are we still hurting each other with our words and actions when the Church was meant to be a hospital. I remember hearing many preachers say from the pulpit, "The church has become a place that shoots its wounded."

Why are we shooting the wounded? Dismissing them from our congregations instead of restoring them gently as we are admonished to do in Matthew 18 and Galatians 6.They will know us by our love. Are we loving them with His heart?

Monday, December 27, 2010

A Really Good Christmas

[slideshow]Scott and I had a really good plan for Christmas gifts this year - simple, easy... No sweat kind of gifts for EVERYONE we love! Yes, the kind of one-stop shopping that happens at the teller window of the bank, the gift card counter at favorite restaurants and the bulk card counter at the Hallmark store. Apparently, God had something else in mind.

Have you ever noticed when you get off doing your own thing, God will often allow you to get pretty far down that road before you realize He is telling you to turn back. I wonder if that looks a bit like me calling after our barking dog chasing squirrels in the backyard? Hmmm. I need to spend some time on that I think.

So, on Monday, last week as I prayed for our kids I began to see pictures - I don't know how else to explain it, but I just could see these pictures. First for Taylor, who has been after me to paint her a bird since I resurrected my art skills last year. I explained to her back then that painting for me lately has been less about human delight and more about the pictures I see when I pray. I told her I'd ask God about her bird and paint it when He showed it to me. Well, it just happened to be last Monday, December 20, 2011. IMAGINE.

I hauled out the paint box, my portable easel, the brushes and my canvases and started the work of creating the visions in my head. For Taylor, I saw the Bird and got the Scripture from Corinthians "Where the Spirit of the Lord is there is freedom." I no kidding painted until about 11:30 pm and managed to finish Taylor's picture and half of the picture I received for Travis that night.

Travis' picture happens to be a favorite... :) His is the hand of Christ upon the cross with a fresh wound where the nail held his wrist to the board. The wound and blood in the picture are evident, and the blood has pooled in the palm of the hand to spell Travis' name. The message is "Your name is written in the palm of His hand."

Then beautiful Megan and Psalm 45:11 which says, "The King is enthralled with your beauty." I painted a mirror with a golden ornamental frame - the kind you would find in a royal palace. I love the way it turned out.

Taylor's fella', Daniel, is the worship pastor at the small Baptist church they attend in Keller. For him I saw a set of musical notes with Glory to God in the Highest and on earth peace and goodwill to all men. In the top of the notes I saw - Worship in Spirit and truth. The painting reflected to me that Worship is who Daniel is, not just what he does. It was such a beautiful statement.

Brittany's beau, Michael, also got an interesting picture - at first I thought it was a telescope - but when I drew it out - it looked, well... WEIRD. I didn't like it so I put it away. Then on Christmas Eve morning I asked Scott - "Do we have a pair of binoculars?"

He brought out Justin's old set of binoculars, and I used them to "model" the picture that was taking shape in my mind. The Scripture that came with it was "Blessed are the pure in heart for they shall see God." (Matthew 5:8) What God shared with me as I was painting was that He wanted Michael - the excellent photographer that took our family pics in September - to stop seeing so much with his natural eyes, and instead see through his "God Goggles" from God's perspective what is happening in his life and the world around him. I explained, sometimes when we are using our natural eyes to see - we strain hard to see things off in the distance, but I had the sense God wanted to make it easier for Michael to see. He who has eyes to see let him see...

Then, on Christmas Eve after all the festivities at my In-Loves house (Scott's parents) I returned home to finish Brittany's painting - I had known hers would be about her unique value and the Scripture in  my head all week rang with Isaiah 43 and how precious and loved she is. My Brittany has bought me several pearl pieces of jewelry for gifts. They are my birthstone, but she just thinks I deserve them. I had intended on painting her a diamond, but found myself reluctant to paint that picture in the end. As we picked up and put things away when we arrived home on Friday night I began to see a huge pearl in a muscle shell sitting in the sand with the tide coming in around it. A pearl of great price. My Brittany's picture was all about how sometimes an irritation can be covered by the grace of God in such a way that it becomes something of great value and beauty in our lives. She has had a rough 18 months and is still working her way out of it... She came home from an exhausting evening at James Avery in Southlake, (And I DO MEAN EXHAUSTING), on Thursday and put her head on my shoulder and cried. She said, "I'm just so tired." She sat there for a few minutes hugging onto me tight... on the thresh hold of coming down with a cold and scheduled to work all day on Friday as well. The message of her painting was a beautiful way to tell her how special and wonderful she is and how God will redeem the hardships in her life in a meaningful way.

The painting plan included a special letter of blessing for each child. But, with all the craziness in my Christmas gift ideas changing by the minutes I ran short on time and pen to get them all done. :) But, my hubs totally came through - He wrote out a prayer of blessings from Numbers 6 for each of our kids. He even signed the ones to my girls, "Love, Dad." Which took each of them by surprise, and brought a sweet moment of recognition to each of their hearts about the place they hold in his life. He cannot replace their dad, but each of them consider him to be more of a father to them than their own dad. I'm still going to write that letter.

The last item on the Christmas list this year was a "heart gift." A heart gift is a picture of what I would give you for Christmas if money were no object... And, so my husband, my girls and Scott's two children as well as our girls' boyfriends got pictures of lavish gifts in gift card holders with a note that said, "These are the presents in my heart for you." The response was delightful. Everyone received them well, Megan was heard to exclaim: "A Mac Book Air!" And she lit up like our Christmas tree.

Brittany was also excited, but a little bit confused by the whole shift from what she knew we were planning. I told her I knew the change was probably a little disappointing since she may have been looking forward to the money. Taylor exclaimed, much like Megan, "OOOOHHH... A Mac Book Air!"

Michael got very excited after he realized what the heart gift was all about. He said, "It wouldn't work well in all settings." You know a homeless guy who is cold might not quite understand if you gave him a picture of a blanket. But, all in all, they thought it very cool. I think Michael appreciated it because he has a particular problem with the commercial aspects of Christmas. So, the things reflected in our Christmas this year seemed particularly meaningful to him this year.

I've still got three letters to write, because on Friday morning God politely interrupted the remainder of my plans to give the kids the money gift with their paintings with another idea. Photo albums full of pictures from our family pic photo shoot, and then I discovered the sweet plaques for the wall that spoke about the season of life each of our kids are finding themselves in. So I printed out what felt like a bizillion pictures while sending Scott on a number of trips to Staples for needed ink as I bled through the cartidges like the were a broken water pipe.

On Christmas Day we spent the afternoon with my girls, my parents and my brother's family and in-loves. We had delicious food, played with the babies - exchanged delightful gifts and returned home exhausted. Brittany and Michael left a half hour or so after we arrived back home, but before they left - she leaned down and hugged me really tight. "This was a really good Christmas, Momma."  Or something like that... :)

Oh, and Scott and I deviated from our norm as well... We don't normally exchange gifts. I usually get him small items he needs, and accept that my hubs doesn't typically plan for buying gifts on any occasion. We went shopping for each other together - on a date of sorts Thursday night. I got the beautiful coat I'd been eyeing at Lane Bryant complete with scarf and gloves. I will be sad when the weather gets too warm to wear it out later this week. I love it. He, on the other hand, got a bowling ball called, "The Black Widow Nasty" which is supposed to have a wicked hook to it. He actually got to try it out after they drilled it up on Thursday and bowled seven strikes in a row... :) LOVE IT! He bowls regularly in a league on Monday nights and a number of years ago when he bowled a mixed league with my mom he bowled a near perfect game with the front ten strikes and a 284.I also got him a remote control helicopter... which hit my tree a few times in the living room on Christmas day.

It was sweet to enjoy these gifts with my man this year. We saw two movies over the weekend and are enjoying Taco Soup in a mostly clean house - after the "Aftermath" of our Christmas weekend.  As we approach New Year's Eve this week I look back on this year and find myself thinking how blessed we truly are and what a wonderful year we've shared along the way. No small part of that for me is all of you hear at Deep Breath. Blessings to all in 2011.

 


Saturday, December 18, 2010

Prayer Requests

Please forgive my overlooking my post yesterday, I have been knee deep in writing the Bible study for my Bereaved Mother's Group in the fall.

Please, be in prayer for this with me, and especially for the protection of my home, my family and this ministry as I proceed forward. Pray for God's hedge of protection to be about me and to grant me wisdom for the use of equipping women in their grief.

Dear Lord,

I have no words. I am in awe of You. You part seas and mend fences, you lift the dead from the grave and cause the blind to see. You, Oh Lord, are gracious to Your servants and we honor You alone. Lord be with each woman who visits and reads the words you have given me to post. Help us to walk through this dark season on the arm of Christ and to find victory in the days ahead. You are God and we adore You. Bless us indeed.

In Jesus' mighty name. Amen.

This week's passage is from John 3:16 - I will post a pretty quote box by Thursday! "For God so loved the world that He gave His only begotten Son that whoever should believe in Him would not perish but have everlasting life."

Is He Your Everything?

As I was on my way to church I was singing this song with the praise and worship on the radio. It makes me think, do I really want God to be this kind of first in my life? And, as I sang out to Him in church I knew it was true... I want Him to be my everything... As this song ended and another began... I saw a cloud that looked like a handprint in the sky. A few minutes later it was completely gone. I dont' know how to explain it, but I have had many occasions to be in an attitude of total surrender and experience something in nature to remind me that God is with me.
Even in our losses and our most difficult moments, we must be crying out to Him to be our everything... anything less is just an idol... a god we use to replace Him in our life!
Is He your everything?






Share Your Testimony...




What will your cardboard testimony be?
4because we have heard of your faith
in Christ Jesus and of the love you
have for all the saints—
5the faith and love that spring from
the hope that is stored up for you in
heaven and that you have already
heard about in the word of truth, the gospel
6that has come to you. All over the world
this gospel is bearing fruit and growing,
just as it has been doing among you since
the day you heard it and understood
God's grace in all its truth.
27To them God has chosen to make known among
the Gentiles the glorious riches of this mystery,
which is Christ in you, the hope of glory.
Colossians 1:4-6, 27 (NIV)

18God did this so that, by two unchangeable things
in which it is impossible for God to lie,
we who have fled to take hold of the hope offered
to us may be greatly encouraged.
19We have this hope as an anchor for the soul,
firm and secure. It enters the inner sanctuary
behind the curtain,
20where Jesus, who went before us, has entered
on our behalf. He has become a high priest forever,
in the order of Melchizedek.
Hebrews 6:18-20
Michelle Bentham: "Wayward Prodigal & Grieving Mom" to "Victoriously Redeemed & Helper to the Hurting"

Worship Him as Healer...

Part of our grief journey is acknowledging that God alone has the power to save, to give life and ultimately bring life to an end, He is both sovereign and just and He alone has the power to heal us from everything that we suffer through. He died to set us free - will we live there? Will we?

Worship the Healer and know that nothing is impossible for God, who save, redeems, reconciles and blesses! He alone is God and He alone is good.

This song sends me to my knees when I begin to worship and acknowledge the healing power of our Lord and Savior, Jesus Christ. By His stripes we are healed.






Book Recommendation: The Shack


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I am reading The Shack by William P. Young. For those of you grieving the loss of a child, the questions that arise from that pain and the sometimes disjointed and disconnected feelings we have toward God in the aftermath of a such a loss... I would say, "Read The Shack."

This quote is from the back cover summary of the story:

"Mackenzie Allen Phillips' youngest daughter, Missy, has been abducted during a family vacation and evidence that she may have been brutally murdered is found in an abandoned shack deep in the Oregon wilderness. Four years later in the midst of his Great Sadness, Mack receives a suspicious note, apparently from God, inviting him back to that shack for a weekend.

Against his beter judgment he arrives at the shack on a wintry afternoon and walks back into his darkest nightmare. What he find there will change Mack's world forever.

In a world where religion seems to grow increasingly irrelevant The Shack wrestles with the timeless question, "Where is God in a world so filled with unspeakable pain?" The answers Mack gets will astound you and perhaps transform you as much as it did him. You'll want everyone you know to read this book!"

So, with that said, lay down all your preconcieved, religious notions about God, pain and the way tragedy occurs and read The Shack. A novel filled with thought provoking situations faced in the human realm everyday, and an offer to challenge those of us who would put God inside a box, framed only by the statement of faith in our denomination of choice without a relationship born of our faith and His Word. Is The Shack a book to base your doctrine and theology on? Not hardly. Nor would I venture to guess that its writer would want anyone to examine the book and base their faith solely on what he writes. I cannot even readily say that I agree 100% with the premise presented in the story - but it does make me think, search an ask of God what it is I have wrong about Him. And that makes the read much more worth it...

I believe the book presents the proposition of what would happen if we took our questions to God, and in the process stopped viewing Him in purely human terms. It is not for the faint of heart, and perhaps it is not for the unseasoned sojourner in the stream of this life we walk with God. In my heart, this book has provoked me to ask God what is a truth to take to heart, and to comparitively place this book against the Scriptures for evidence of truth. It is something I always do.

When reading the book, "Hinds Feet On High Places," I discovered that the writer later turned to New Age relativism and left the roots of her faith founded in her as a child on the mission field. Does this insight make her allegory less of a story?

There are those who argue that Lewis' "Narnia" fiction or Tolkien's "Lord of the Rings" bear the same striking marks of fantasy and absurdism where God is concerned. But that makes them no less valuable to us in the Christian world because we are required to dig in and learn more about God as a result of our perusal. These again are not foundations of doctrine, but highlights and pointers that reveal to us a God worthy of being searched out, worshipped, respected and believed in. All of it must be submitted by standard to His Word and His Work to be marked as valid and pointing to God. Any student of God's Word must examine the claims and the truths as they are presented by anyone who would write about God.

There are a number of arguments that have been raised based on this book - which I do not have the time or the intention to entertain. I see a lot of merit in the story about Faith, Forgiveness, Healing, Redemption, Reconciliation and Relationship that makes it a worthwhile read.

Read it with the heart and the eyes of someone reading Fiction - just the way you would read John Grisham or Danielle Steele - then balance that with your study of God's Word, your involvement in the local church and by asking God through prayer to reveal Himself to you in more intimate and real ways as you make this journey.

I am sure that when we surrender ourselves to the Holy Spirit and His teaching through God's Word - we will find Him in a blade of grass, a secular or a worship song, any place where Creation exists - after all, Creation cries out that He exists. The truth is eternity and salvation come through a relationship with God through our faith and by His grace in the redemptive sacrifice of Jesus Christ. Our faith is born and brought to maturity by the hearing and applying of God's Word on an individual basis. In light of that truth, I can still recommend this book as a fiction novel that will challenge us to ask God where we have put Him into a box. Read on.

It is finished...

Hello Friends,

I am back. I've been away too long. My curriculum for this fall is finally finished and I have 12 weeks worth of devotions to share with you all this coming fall... My next post will be the first of the twelve. It is the pick up from our last week's Scripture that I did not get a devotion posted for .

Anyway, thanks for your patience and your love. Blessings.

A Few Videos and A Story

I didn't make my regular post last week. I've been consumed. I hope if you are reading, that you are still reading.

I would like to direct you to Life Today on Tuesday, July 22nd at 7:30 AM (CDT) on Daystar and at 1:30 PM (CDT) on TBN for the story of Christina and Steven Barnard. Their story will not only touch your heart, but it will remind you that God's goodness and glory are revealed even in the midst of great tragedy. If you don't catch it on Television - watch it by clicking this LINK. (Click on the video link for July 22nd's Show!)

I am going to be speaking at a Memorial Service held by the support group I have attended these last couple of years now. I have asked that these three videos be played at the service as a time of worship.

Three of the songs, "With HOPE," "His Strength is Perfect," and "I Will Be Here" are sung by Stephen Curtis Chapman whose daughter, Maria died in May after an automobile accident at the families home. The other song, is by Mark Schultz. We played it at Justin's funeral.



























A Blessing is Coming...

I'm so excited - I could literally bust! I mean seriously. GOD. IS. SO. GOOD. I must admit I can't give you details right now, but I am just sayin' that God is going to do a mighty work in all our lives and I know that You are going to be blessed beyond measure.

Pray for the coming blessing and most of all... receive it. To Him be the glory forever and ever Amen.

Sharing Our Stories, Building Legacies and Identifying Readers

If you are regularly reading the blog, would you mind leaving a comment with your first name?

Just trying to get a feel for who is out there. If you do not have a blog or do not want to link back to your blog, then feel free to leave a post as "anonymous" and your first name.

I would also love to hear other stories. You can EMAIL me and share your Heart to Heart story if you are willing.

I have been telling my story, which I love to do because I believe it is part of Justin's legacy that his story help others along the way. What is your story? Pictures would be a great encouragement to me to. I am hoping to work up a post about the Heart to Heart children, so do share if you are willing and let me know what you think of this idea.

Thought Filled Thursdays - Cultivating Gratitude

Be at rest once more, O my soul, for the LORD has been good to you.
Psalm 116:7

In the year leading up to Justin’s death, I prayed many prayers for him. He was a troubled young man trying to find his way in a world that had left him fatherless and searching for an identity that would make him feel complete. Justin knew Jesus. He struggled every week with his mental illness and angry thoughts. He knelt at the altar and honestly reflected on and shared his pain.

It is almost impossible to imagine the pain of losing a child suddenly and traumatically the way most of us have. Yet, with Justin watching him self-destruct up close and personal, and fighting for every inch of his life was almost worse. I remember walking into church in October 2004. I was weary, we had just spent a week unraveling the mess of having to pick him up from the police for breaking curfew. We would learn that week that he had been sneaking out regularly, experimenting with alcohol and prescription medication all trying to turn off his mind. He sat shaking violently as tears were streaming down his face.

“Momma, I need help. I can’t do this anymore.”

It broke my heart. We had been hoping to get him help sooner, but he had been adamant. He didn’t want to be medicated or otherwise labeled as defective. He pretended to be normal while his life spun vigorously out of control. As I felt the tears stinging my eyes that day in church I said, “I don’t even know what to ask for anymore. Would you just pray for my son?”

A few hours later, my friend – and Pastor’s wife – came rushing up to me at the evening service. She thrust a paper in front of me and said, “Michelle, God has given me a word for Justin – It’s continue. You know, like Philippians 1:6 – God will continue the good work He began in him at salvation.”

We immediately went to the prayer room and knelt there hands tightly clasped praying for my prodigal son. We looked up ten or so Scriptures that we prayed over her adult prodigal and my teenage one. All had the word continue in them. We prayed hard, we prayed often, and we prayed believing. His life began to improve.

After the New Year rolled around and 2005 came in full swing, those prayers came more feverishly and more often. Our cry to God became more desperate. My son’s life began to spin again, first slowly and then into full blown mental, emotional and social issues that threatened to destroy my marriage and our family. It was more than I could take. I would lay on my bed at night and weep to the Lord - Crying out in anguish over my child. I would go to Justin in the night to lay hands on him and pray. I had him on prayer chain after prayer chain, as well as in the counsel and company of godly men. I searched Scripture and held fast. Then one night, as we concluded an exercise at Bible study where we were supposed to write our most ardent prayer request on an index card a revelation and a release came.

The instructions were to write out the request, hold it up to heaven and instead of continuing to pray that request over and over again, thank God for the answer by faith instead. I started that night and continued throughout the next few months. That day, as I made my way to the hospital certain of very little except that I needed God’s strength and peace to face whatever lay ahead I found myself praising God for little things… That my son was alive when I got to the hospital, for a family and church that loved us so, that God would ultimately have mercy on my son and provide the peace I would need to carry on. When he died I found myself praising God and thanking Him for the 17 years of life we had with him. My soul finds rest in God alone… He is my hope, my strength and my song.

My soul will boast in the LORD; let the afflicted hear and rejoice. ~ Psalm 34:2

Thought Filled Thursdays - Powerful Beyond Measure

His divine power has given us everything we need for life and godliness through our knowledge of him who called us by his own glory and goodness.
2 Peter 1:3 (NIV)
What does powerful beyond measure look like to you right now? In those early days of my grief I reasoned that the only way I could get out of bed everyday was because of the power of Christ at work in me. I knew that in and of myself I could do nothing good, noble or powerful. Yet, here I am holding on still – determined to live my life fully as God has purposed for me to do until He finally calls me home. How did I arrive here?

God’s strength is made perfect in my weakness.(2 Corinthians 12:9) We serve and live in relationship with the power and atoning grace of God through His Son, Jesus Christ, and His Holy Spirit. I used to cringe when people looked at me as the source of strength and power in my life – as if by some power within me I willed myself to endure with perseverance, maintain hope and hold onto life because it was in and of me. I heard it many times: “You’re holding together so well, we almost forget what you’re going through.”
“You are so much stronger than I am – I don’t know what I would do.”

Honestly, I didn’t either. My worst confessed fear was that one of my children would die. I couldn’t imagine the pain or surviving that kind of loss. In truth, I did not want to survive that kind of loss. My confession was that if anything every happened to my children I would die. I would just die, too.

God, however, had other plans. I merely submitted to His Word, those plans and ultimately surrendered any control I thought I had in my life to Him. That is the amazing thing about God – submission on God’s terms is a paradox. He asks us to surrender and in surrender He empowers us beyond measure. Logically, naturally surrender would not empower us – it would give control and power to someone or something else. Yet, surrendering to God transfers our burden to Him and His power to us. Let that settle on you for a moment.

We must continue to live in the power and the calling of God upon our lives in spite of our present sufferings. We must rise above the suffering and live fully in the purposes of God for our suffering. But how?

Well, it starts with surrender. Admitting that there is nothing more that we ourselves can do to overcome the pain, the suffering and the temptations we face in this life. We have to surrender the lies we have been holding onto and the ways we try to stay safe and protect ourselves from risk and hurt. We have to come to the end of ourselves, the pride of our lives and fully depend on God for every aspect of our existence. It doesn’t make sense – but God told us it wouldn’t.

Through Isaiah the prophet God assures us that His ways will not make sense to us. His ways confound human nature and logic and leave us scratching our heads. When that came into my life three years ago, I did not have a clue what God was doing, but I was determined to find out. There were two promises I held onto – Jeremiah 29:11 and Romans 8:28. I believed with all my heart that God had a plan and a purpose for the aftermath of the death of my child and that His purpose would bring good to my life again and reveal His glory in immeasurable ways.

What did I do to receive this power beyond measure?
1. Laid down my expectations. I stopped claiming my entitlements. I asked for measures of blessings still, but I asked for the better virtue of God’s will. In doing so, I stopped limiting God’s power in my life and fully experienced His peace and His strength in spite of my pain.

2. I stayed connected through the body and through His Word – I couldn’t read a whole lot of new Scripture but I would let God give me a verse or two from my previous two years of study and I would focus on remembering those promises and those truths and examining how they were helping me through my loss. But most of all I had to cry out to and trust the Holy Spirit to bring me comfort and truth.

3. I had to let God show me how to fight His way because my way had never worked. By laying down my will and my way for what had happened God was released to work and act on my behalf – and His ways are not only higher – they are always better.
3For though we live in the world, we do not wage war as the world does. 4The weapons we fight with are not the weapons of the world. On the contrary, they have divine power to demolish strongholds. 5We demolish arguments and every pretension that sets itself up against the knowledge of God, and we take captive every thought to make it obedient to Christ. ~ 2 Corinthians 10:3-5 (NIV)

Thought Filled Thursdays - It's All Relative

If you have any encouragement from being united with Christ, if any comfort from his love, if any fellowship with the Spirit, if any tenderness and compassion, 2then make my joy complete by being like-minded, having the same love, being one in spirit and purpose. 3Do nothing out of selfish ambition or vain conceit, but in humility consider others better than yourselves.
Philippians 2:1-3 (NIV)
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As I was preparing this post, I was looking for Scriptures that would be “relative” in nature. That is when Philippians 2 came to me. It is such a passage of hope for relationships. It says IF you have any encouragement in Christ, any comfort from his love, any fellowship with his Spirit… any tenderness and compassion… Do nothing out of selfish ambition and vain conceit, but consider others better than yourself. The great commandment, in Jesus words, is to love the Lord your God with all your heart, soul, mind and strength – and then the second – Love your neighbor as yourself. Loving those closest to us as we love our self – What does that look like?
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A few weeks ago I was listening to someone on the radio beating someone else down and using the “Ten Commandments” to do it. I suddenly had a revelation about the “Law” versus “Grace”
issue of the Old and New Testament or Covenants. You see, God instituted boundaries in the Ten Commandments that would ensure the two commandments that Christ referenced would be observed by all who are marked by the love of His covenant. His covenant is an everlasting covenant.
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In the Gospels, Jesus tells us He did not come to replace the law but to fulfill it. I could not get past that phrase – not to replace but to fulfill. Of course, the evidence is that He fulfilled the Law and its requirements by never violating them. He also fulfilled the purpose of the Law by providing atonement and an avenue for unrighteous man to have access to God without the penalty of sin. He did it all. He loved them all. He died for them all. Love your neighbor as yourself. For God so loved the World that He gave all.
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It was this fulfilling of the Law that makes a relationship with God possible. So why am I dwelling on this in a week when we are talking about boundaries, relationships and relating to our friends and family in spite of our grief. Because it is all relative, that’s why. Through Christ we have relationship with God and a higher call to relationship with one another. We are called to continue the fulfillment of the Law in our relationships through the power and love of Jesus Christ.
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That day as I listened to the radio personality beating up on a “fellow Christian” with the Ten Commandments and Scripture – It struck me funny. How many times does Scripture say we are to be unified in Spirit and to love one another? How often does it say that love covers a multitude of sins? Yet, here is this self proclaimed Evangelist who is sarcastically tearing other preachers and teachers to shreds for the things they are doing and saying in their ministries on public radio.
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It just lay all over me as I muttered, “They preach the Law, but the Law is not at work in them. The Law fulfilled by grace.”
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I was not angry, nor was I disgusted – I was moved with compassion for people who try so diligently to keep the letter of the Law and miss the grace that is at work in it. The Law is full of grace. When God established boundaries for His people those boundaries were designed to allow His people to reflect two things: 1.) Their heart to love Him, and 2.) His heart to love us. The first four are about how we are to express our love and devotion to God, and the latter six are an expression of God’s love for mankind through His people. The beauty is that by not stealing, lying, murdering, committing adultery and coveting your neighbor’s things, as well as honoring your father and mother – we find ourselves at the center of selfless acts of love that allow us to administer grace instead of judgment. Grace at work in the Law and fulfilled on the cross through Christ Jesus.
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It is through the fulfilling of the perfect Law of God that redemption came, and it is through that same perfect law that redemption of our grief and our sorrow will come. When we institute boundaries in our relationships that exemplify our love for God and His love for mankind – specifically for those we are in relationship with we perpetuate the fulfillment of the Law and express the Gospel in love, truth and mercy.
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Even in darkness light dawns for the upright, for the gracious and compassionate and righteous man. ~ Psalm 112:4 (NIV)~

Heart to Heart Connections

I promised to deliver the word about a blessing that is coming and it is beginning to arrive.
My friend, GratefulinGA, has agreed to share with us here at Heart to Heart so you will be reading about her daughter Lauren and her journey through the valley of the shadow of death here as the days move ahead.
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Please read about her grief journey and her precious girl, Lauren, in her first post: big time glue. Be sure to leave her a comment by way of welcome and join us by sharing with us about your children as you read along.
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Many blessing to all and a great big praise to our Great God for bringing in the sheaves.
Much love to you all, and especially to our new friend.
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Dearest Lord and Father,
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I pray you would wrap your arms around each woman who comes here to read, to share her story and to grow in grace and healing along the way. My prayer is especially for our friend in Georgia, Lauren's mom. Thank you for sending her to join us in our heart to heart journey. I pray we all find a heart connection with one another, Lord, but most of all with YOU. You are our hope, our strength and our strong. The joy of our lives and the promise of the future. Thank you for your faithfulness and testimonies that declare You so. I am honored and blessed to bear witness to Your mercy and grace in the lives of others every day. Bless them all Lord, Bless them indeed.
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In Jesus' sweet and precious name I pray. Amen.

Triggers

Milestones and Holidays

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Thought Filled Thursdays: Trauma, Triggers, Troubles... Truth to Stand On

I wanted to write a post about trauma, triggers, things that trouble us and some truth to stand on in the days to come. I've long said that there are three primary things that got me through my grief: Truth, Talking and Tears. I have reached a place where the tears mean and come for different reasons than they once did, and I must admit that I had a period of time where it felt as if I couldn't cry another drop of wet sorrow over my son - even if I wanted to. I just felt all cried out. Still... The tears are important, as are the things that triggered them and the truth that I discovered in them when I talked about my loss, my God and the places I had been with Justin since we began this journey together some 20 years ago..
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Tammy wrote a terrific post about things that trigger her memories, her tears and her to work through her grief. Be sure to read about it here. It is such a reminder about the importance of allowing your heart and body to fully express grief as it comes in your life.
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I am a visual/audio person. Images and music tend to have a significant impact on me for some reason - so as I was beginning to write this post a few scenes came to mind and along the way that song at the end landed on me with a deep sense of truth tucked away inside of it.
(**Tissue warning... Tissue Warning... Sobbing scenes ahead.**)
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The first two video clips are from Terms of Endearment staring Shirley McClaine and Deborah Winger. This movie was produced in 1983. I remember being a high school student when my brother and I hosted a sleepover for all our neighborhood friends. Four girls and four boys were sitting in my bedroom floor watching this movie in the middle of the night. All four girls were blubbering and wiping their noses in a full on ugly cry while the boys looked on in awe at all that estrogen charged emotion.
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For me, Shirley McClaine fighting for her daughter was like those last few days of Justin's life when it felt like the world had stopped and all I wanted was to take care of my son and make sure everyone responded with his best interest at heart.
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For many days no one would tell us what was happening with my Jay-bird. He lay in that bed, his blood pressure and temperature were looking really good. With his summer tan on his face he looked so peaceful sleeping there. But, his cranial pressure - the indicator for the severity of the swelling on his brain - just kept rising. On the seventh day, Monday, August 22nd, everything in my life felt upside down. The doctors had come in early while I was away and my dad was with him. I had returned home overnight to go to my own doctor and take my daughters to school. They said that one of his pupil's had stopped responding to light which could mean that he was taking a turn for the worst. My dad called and I prayed. "Lord, please... just let him be alive when I get there."
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I had told the doctors for days that we wanted the complete, unvarnished truth. By noon, when the neurosurgeon's had avoided my son's room and talking to me for the second time I was a frantic mess. I was crying, shaking and ANGRY. I felt much of what Shirley McClaine expresses in this scene - except my son didn't need a shot for pain. I needed answers about his condition - answers no one seemed willing to provide.
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The social worker assigned to be our advocate during Justin's eight day ordeal at the hospital advised me to call the doctor's office and ask them to help me. I went back to the nurse's station. Within minutes I was on the line with a Physician's Assistant who had not even seen my son in the hospital. He placed me on hold and reviewed my son's file and films. I felt like I had been there forever when he came back on and said, "Ma'am, though I have not examined your son I would say that we need to do a test and I will order it for tomorrow or the next day. This test will measure the blood flow to your son's brain."
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I already sensed what the results of that test would be... Still, at least I had some sort of answer to what the doctor's were thinking. He assured me that we would have definitive answers about my son's condition after this test was completed. I asked my husband to call the elders and have them come along with our pastor and family. I did not want to deal with people - I just wanted to have those who'd loved us longest and those who had been there for my son during the most difficult months to pray with us over him before we released him to God. Apparently, Scott did not convey that message. That night more than 150 people arrived at the hospital and my father "ran the tour." When the nurses gave him the heads up that he could bring as many people back as he could - four at a time - he began walking out and leading people back to the room for five minute visits where he explained all the details of the monitors and held onto his hope that my son was going to live.
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I, on the other hand, had been sitting on my cot while his nurse, Donna, checked his pupils as was the hourly routine. When she looked up with discouraged eyes that showed me a heart aching for our family all she could do was whisper. "We've lost his other pupil."
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The finality of those words lay over me like a thick, suffocating blanket. My son had slipped away. I felt the warm wet tears that had been mine for days as Justin's condition hit peaks and then dove into valleys ... "That's not good is it?"
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She shook her head, came to my side and sat and held me in her arms as I cried. She wept, too. It touched me in the deep places of my heart the way the staff of the hospital loved on us and met with us in our need. They took good care of my baby and my family during those awful days when tragedy visited us and death consumed one of our own.











These next scenes mark out some of how I felt on August 23, 2005. Such peace in the passing, but then terrible angst. One of my prayers that week was for God to make the outcome sure. Either He was going to heal and restore my son or He wasn't this side of heaven. By that last day, my heart cry was not to bring my son back in a broken state, but to make it absolutely certain and to leave no doubt about God's will. When the doctor's told us that they were sure his brain stem had hemorrhaged on his way back from the last test and they would be in to turn off his ventilator so we should gather our family... Again I felt peace mixed with deep sorrow.
Certainty.
There was not absolution for me until they turned off the machines and there was no gasp of air, no shaking, nothing that suggested my son was still in that body. He had slipped away quietly while no one was looking. He tread the path to heaven with Jesus by his side and I knew with absolute certainty that he would never awaken to me on earth again. The sobs of death consumed me as that truth settled into my life for the first time. I bathed his body, held him tight and left him to the medical examiner. He still is my son.
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The Steel Magnolias funeral scene has always reduced me to tears. The things that M'lynn expresses at the funeral reflected my own heart about the death of my child. She recounted the last minutes with "there was no gasp, no tremble - just peace" She said her husband couldn't take it, he left. Her son-in-law couldn't take it... he left. That men, "they're supposed to be made of steel or something, but they couldn't take it... I was there when that beautiful creature drifted into my life and I was there when she drifted out. It was the most precious moment of my life."
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I felt all that and more in those hours leading up to and out of my son's death. I recently asked my husband where he was standing when they turned off Justin's machines. His answer? By the door. He spent little time in the room with Justin and I, barely able to stand the "frankenstein-esque" monitor in his skull and all the bleating machines and wires that ran to and from his body.
Since I've given you some heavier scenes to contemplate earlier I thought I would drop this next one in because it makes us laugh. It so accurately expresses the full range of anger, emotional tumult and that uncanny role of humor in our tears that can come in times of great tragedy.




This final scene was met with a round of cheers as my daughters and I watched this serial drama for teenagers. One Tree Hill is on the CW (formerly the WB) each week and we've followed it off and on from its inception.
This scene is between the original group of One Tree Hill who are now adults and teachers in the life of a teenager who was killed when he accidentally walked in on an armed robbery at a gas station. I include it because there is truth to stand on in these lines... and it is truth hard to find in the entertainment industry these days. When others are crying out that self-awareness and getting in touch with your inner child or nature, and society says we create our own realities... Here is this little serial drama that does not get it right half the time declaring the truth for all to see. Thank God He uses even the mundane to reveal Himself in small ways.




There's an old saying "God will not give us more than we can bear." But, as I read the Scriptures I hear the Holy Spirit saying something fresh in 1 Corinthians 10:12-13 "Therefore let him who thinks he stands take heed lest he fall. 13 No temptation has overtaken you except such as is common to man; but God is faithful, who will not allow you to be tempted beyond what you are able, but with the temptation will also make the way of escape, that you may be able to bear it." (NKJV, emphasis mine)
God is faithful to keep us from being pushed beyond our limits. In and of our own power and strength we have nothing, Scripture tells us that His strength is made perfect in our weakness - meaning it is proven powerful in the weakest, most devastating moments of our lives. When I read 1 Corinthians 10:13 it speaks this to me: "God will not give us more than HE can bear." That passage says that with God I can withstand any trial, any suffering, any temptation and overcome because He makes the way.
Paul reports in his epistles as having been afflicted by a thorn in the flesh that He prayed three times to have removed. But, rather than removing the thorn, God provided him the grace to endure the tempest and the storm. God will provide the same for you. He is the God of all comfort. He sustains those who are weak and hurting. He comforts those who suffer and mourn and He gives grace and strength to those who feel as if they cannot go on. He causes us to stand. We have a Rock in Jesus Christ upon which to STAND FIRM. So .... my friends, Stand. When you think you'll give up. Stand. When you're down on you're luck. Stand. Get up... Can't you hear Him saying, Get up and Stand with Me in this. He wants you to stand.

Stand
(As Sung by Rascal Flatts)
"You feel like a candle in a hurricane
Just like a picture with a broken frame
Alone and helpless
Like you've lost your fight
But you'll be alright, you'll be alright
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[Chorus:]
Cause when push comes to shove
You taste what you're made of
You might bend, till you break
Cause its all you can take
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On your knees you look up
Decide you've had enough
You get mad you get strong
Wipe your hands shake it off
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Then you Stand,
Then you stand
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Life's like a novel
With the end ripped out
The edge of a canyon
With only one way down
Take what you're given before its gone
Start holding on,
keep holding on
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[Repeat Chorus]
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Every time you get up
And get back in the race
One more small piece of you
Starts to fall into place
Oh...
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[Repeat Chorus]





With my love and prayers,
Michelle